I’ve been dealing with anxiety on and off for the majority of my adult life. Earlier this summer I had it under control. A negative thought would pop into my head and I’d be like; “Nope! not ta-day satan!” and keep it moving. But September, Oh September did a number on me. 😩 I don’t know what it was but your girl was worried about everything under the sun.
Was ending that relationship the right thing to do or should I have fought for it a little harder?
Where the heck is my money coming from this month? –ya’ll freelance money comes and goes as it pleases.
How in the world can I make NRJ a full-time thriving business?
Should I move back home and be closer to my family since a bunch of my closest friends all moved out of state? My relationship is over. Maybe there’s just nothing in Chicago for me anymore.
Those thoughts have been circling around in my head for the entire month of September. Loneliness, uncertainty and just feeling straight up insecure in every aspect of my life. Bummer right?
Well, my goal for the entire month of October is to get into the very intentional habit of casting my cares and worries to God.
Give all your worries and cares to God because He cares for you-
1 Peter 5:7
My goal is to close my eyes when I am starting to go down that negative spiral and give all those heavy burdens to God in prayer. I want to be still and quiet instead of freaking out about things that haven’t even happened yet. No more trying to do every single thing in my own might. I want to humble my ego and admit that sometimes I just need help. I want to be secure in my choices and trust that God is better than Google maps, that He will re-route me if I take a wrong turn.
Now if you’ve been reading #NRJ for a while you know that this is always my goal. I bet you are probably thinking, “isn’t Jess always trying not to worry?” Girl YES!
What I am learning is that the fight towards peace and joy is a daily one. Every single morning I have to wake up and make the choice to fight for my peace. I have to fight to be secure in my choice to let go. I can’t just sit back and let my feelings run wild. Now I am learning that I must take an active stance in those critical pieces of my being and TAKE my power back. You see, I used to just let my mind think whatever thoughts that came to mind. Or let my mouth speak whatever it wanted to say. “I’m always broke. There are no good men. I can’t catch a break.” Oh, no baby, what is you doing? I have to get that mess in check!
And one way of doing that is giving the things that stress me out, that I cannot change– to God. I’ve tried to worry money into my bank account. Or worry a man into loving me again. Not anymore. My goal is to let God handle that stuff. I haven’t done a good job with it in my own might so far anyway. Lol! So I might as well give that stuff to God and not let in fester in my mind and heart.
What are your goals for October? Let me know in the comment section!
This post was written by NoRealJewelry.Com creator Jessica Lauren. She lives in Chicago and is passionate about encouraging women to become Dreamers + Doers.
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